Everything makes me feel worthless.
My brothers, the preschoolers I work with, and now my new puppy too. They don’t know what they do, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.
I need it to be thundering later tonight when I am done with work and after my doctor appointment. I need a nice deep conversation with a close friend while standing in the middle of a road during a rainstorm. It was so relieving last time, and I could really use another heartfelt time with her.
Except that I have so much work to finish for school tomorrow that I can’t even do anything after my appointment because I have to come right home to finish my project.
I want to just curl up in a ball and cry. My head is pounding and I want to scream. Nothing is getting any better and everything is just making me more stressed. There is no way I will be able to live up to my expectations and finish everything I have to get done tonight.
I make myself feel worthless.
